Christ Followers are we!!!

A new year

2010-08-20T07:07:00.001-07:00

So the summer is almost over and a new semester is about to start. I cant wait to see what God is going to do this year. When you give him your all he gives his all back. When you seek him you will find him, and when you compromise your provisions may be lacking. But the God of glory is near, his kingdom is us, and his power is leading.
I encourage everyone one who reads this to give God their all and to be able to surrender what it is you want most to God. He will fill and give back to you what you desire. This year is Gods but we have to give it him, just a suggestion...lol
Well have fun all and make the best of this year.

2010-08-02T20:52:00.000-07:00

this summer has been crazy i jusy now got the pwer cord for my comp so i can use it. i have learned alot this summer and i have been working alot and learning ho wmuch i need god to show me that i love him and in to his love.

2010-07-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

sorry i havent blogged...the Internet hasnt been working. This summer is going great...spending time with god really changes the day....more encouragement more fun. I have met so many new people his summer and it has been great....i need kool things to do, i have finished paintings and i have more to do...oooo and my bday is coming soon.....!!!!!!

Summer is Here

2010-06-21T14:37:00.000-07:00

Well this summer i have so many goals and things i would love to do. Besides working for tuition money and saving what i can, giving has been really placed on my heart. Not just money but of myself. CMC is reading Primal by Mark Batterson as a summer assignment, and it is life changing to know what we can do. So many times we think that we can't make an impact but we can. I don't have a big income at all but i have one and you know what that means...i can give.
I would really like to really talk to people about god, to really pour my heart out to them. Not to just say hey, but to be a life changer. That this summer isn't a summer of fun but of change.
Recently i received a letter from one of the girls from my home church and it reminded me of what god has for me. I forgot how i met her and how it all started. She reminded me that two people went up and talked to her when she sat alone, i was one of them, that i was persistent and didn't stop. Now she is a youth leader in our church and is going to college for music and ministry. God use me to change her life, not by what i can do but by him....knowing we both love art and that would change lives. That she is now impacting girls lives and they will one day do it also how amazing. Getting that reminder of who god has called me to be has really opened my eyes to know that even when we forget he will always remind us.
God is so amazing and merciful, without his grace i wouldn't make it through. I love knowing that when i fall he is there helping me back up and that there is no way i could stay down with god on my side.
This summer is going to be life changing because god i the focus. I will talk to someone each week about God, i will give what i can, i will make people smile and i will love with all my heart.
I don't want to sit back any more i want to know that god is using someone like me to change the world!
Thanks for reading...and more is to come on what happens.

Starting over...

2010-04-22T19:40:00.000-07:00

So I haven't blogged in a long time but i just wanted to say that God is awesome...that when we r searching for worldly love he will show it. When we want to hear our earthly father say...your beautiful...then God whispers "your beautiful"....the name you don't like i chose to show your beauty....that's my Jesus and my love...!!!!!!!!!

thought

2010-01-12T19:02:00.000-08:00

OK so if God has given you a gift use it. If there is a sermon in your heart write it down. Be active!!!
If you see some one who needs help...help!!!

love you just a thought and stuff i want to work one...have fun

Not you any more

2010-01-11T18:33:00.000-08:00

Wow this past week has been so crazy, and a new week is already here.
God changed my life more than i could have imagined and showed me how much more he has to do.
I don't want to ever be ungrateful... god has done so much,
i was scared and lonely and didn't want to be here on earth and now i have a purpose and fun all the time...

never forget what god has done because none of what you can do is by your strength.
God is the key don't forget it
he is the one who will lead your path not you.

Don't give up on your goals and don't lead...follow god

2010-01-08T15:24:00.000-08:00

This past week at winter retreat was amazing and god showed me how real he was and i just want to say i am so excited...to know that god came and spoke to me out of all the people there he wanted to speak to me...yes he has a word for other people too but i felt so loved knowing that such a huge God loves me to let me know who i am...he will let you know too...wrestle for it.!!!!

Roomies

2010-01-08T15:18:00.000-08:00

So tonight is our last night together for my roomies and me...one of the girls thought we should have a sleep over on the floor for our last night. (we are just switching rooms)
This made me laugh because we all live in the same house and we have shared the same room for the past 4 months.
But you know what its people like that who really appreciate things.
A person even though we live together has such a love and a bod with us doesn't even want to switch rooms...i love it.
I want people in my life who always want to be around, people who cannot forget me.
Lets strive toward the goal to have people hold tight to us, to show a love we didn't think could come from us.
Not just for our friends but for the people we dont know. The people we know need a savior and a friend.
There is so much more that we could do....so we need to step up and have fun with others.

We need to remember to make friends.

Stick figures

2010-01-07T07:50:00.000-08:00

In our world of crazy colors i want to stand out like a black stick figure...that i would never be able to fit in.
A misfit in a world running from god...i am the one chasing him, do you and to join me...there are a few things you should know...:

That you will not fit in
That what you say and do could seem out there and people wont get it.
You wont walk or talk the same
your friends and you will be totally different.
And the one place where you will fit in is during worship....the one place where you know exactly who you are...

do you want to be a misfit...I DO!!!

Conformation of my Daddys love

2010-01-06T17:21:00.000-08:00

So i know this is my second blog in about 3 hours but thats ok...i feel in my heart to remind you that God always pulls through.
That he is your daddy and that we need to be babies in his arms that we should no longer try and do things for our selves but all should be entrusted to him.
When god speaks into your life it will all be confirmed. He will not leave you guessing, he will not dump u off.
God is searching for you who are searching for him. The More you seek him the more you find him, the more you adore him while sitting at his feet, the more understanding of his beauty will be yours, the more you want what he has, there will be less of you in the way and more of him, the more you lean against him and listen to his heart beet the more you will trust him, the more you will know that you are and always will be safe.

Daddy, savior, teacher; god...we need him to be all of them....will you let him...?

God is amazing...

2010-01-06T15:27:00.000-08:00

There are so many stages that god takes us through. For my self i went through a stage where he was just GOD and that was it. Then he was my savior, there one who could hold the universe in his hands, he came to our earth ....a speck...to save us. Then he became a friend that i could tell anything to.
But now he is my daddy....i didn't grow up with some loving father the gushes, i just wished for one. But now i have a Daddy and he is all mine...and i am his. He will be and always is holding me in his arms right against his chest, smiling knowing that i am adoring him and him alone.
NO ONE, can say my God isn't real...he is the most tangible thing in my life...he's my poppy. He holds me and loves me and takes me over from the bottom up!!!!

You ask how i am so sure...well this past break God drew me in more than i could have expected and he opened my heart to him this weekend at our State master conference...a man from Texas who has never met me in his life told me everything i grew up with, everything i hope to do & be and everything i am in the works of doing.

You cant tell me my god, my savior, my Daddy isn't real...

i refuse to be discouraged, and put down because my god in the only thing that matters....is he all that matters to you.
Because when he totally takes over you your desires dont exsist and they become his desires.

Don't stand back any more fight and wrestle with god, don't be like every one else...be his

MISFIT!!!!!!!!

Who are we...?

2010-01-04T12:25:00.000-08:00

There has always been a gap in my mind of how huge God is and how small we are. What kind of sacrifice Jesus really made.
Well god gave me a poem out of no where a couple days ago and this is it.

A Scale Tipper

I believe:

That I am nothing,
And I will leave as nothing.
But while I’m nothing,
I will be known for something.

As grain of sand that I am in this world,
I will tip scales.
I am the flap of a butterfly’s wing,
That will cause a tsunami.

I will be the aggravating speck,
That lands in your eye.
I will be the salt,
That burns your wounds.

As nothing,
But I will be noticed for SOMETHING!!!
I will overturn average,
And change the future.

I will be that small whisper,
That changes nations.
I will be one flake of snow
In a blizzard remembered forever decades.

Nothing can stop me,
I am free.
When I am here and when I am gone,
People will know me.

They will not recognize my coming,
Or my going.
But they will know ME!!!
Because I am nothing.

I wrote this and then Sunday at church was when I got it, we are NOTHING!!!

That god doesn't hold the world in his hands, but the whole universe.
That we aren't even a speck in the place god created...earth is a speck....so what does that make me...?

And if we aren't specks....just think, Christ came here and was less than a speck for us. One second holding us and everything else in his hands and then here...wow.

I feel so blessed and loved knowing that god would come to our earth and be with us...that he loves us with everything inside of him and we aren't even a speck...CRAZY!!!

I get it I really do and now I am ready to have a faith in him greater than all things because we are so Small,l God love could never be questioned.

Being new not just talking about it...

2009-12-31T11:48:00.000-08:00

The new year is here...just hours away and we have a new chance.
Every day is a new chance but this is a new year and a new decade, and we can stand out in it.
Not conforming to the world or the people around you even if there Christians too....this year no more comparing ourselves to others anymore....we were not made to be like others but like Christ.
We need to be who we are, not what some song someone else wrote or a love story we see on TV, we need to be who god made us.
And that's it...not who you are in yourself but who you are in God. A confidence in him and his power.
And to have a sure hope for our future...not to think that we might get it but to know!!!

Fight

2009-12-28T22:39:00.000-08:00

There is a calling on all of our lives something greater...something more.
What life is on earth isn't it...we are not of this world.
So many times we quit to live and end up dieing instead of living.
High rollers....people who want to take a break and go on a new path...and it makes my heart break....
i break for those who try and have their lives full filled by things of this world and at the end of the day they come out empty handed because there is nothing here for us. There is death and sin, but in the lord there is a hope and a future a greater life....a life to the full that can only be met through god.

We are not going to give up our fight for god...he won the war but we are still in a battle.

A battle for our friends, our loved ones, our lives...why would we quit knowing that we are the ones that god wants to use to change their lives.......we are the chosen we are the ones he has summoned for his work..

do not assume that someone else is going to do what you see needs to be done. Its like seeing a car crash happen knowing the people are injured ur the only one around and u keep driving.

STOP DRIVING, PULL OVER, AND GET OUT.

what are we waiting for, i dont want to be dragged out of the battle wounded...i want to get shot at, beet, cut and end up outside the gates of hell praising god for the battle

god is building an army

... FIGHT

Faith

2009-12-28T17:45:00.000-08:00

Faith, that's what god has been teaching me lately...to have more of it...and he has shown me so many examples.

God has made it so much easier for me to read in the old testament lately and I have read 1 kings and now I am in 2 kings...and faith is so huge.
God dwelt in Elisha so much that he could summon bears out of the woods to maul a mob of boys making fun of him.
Christ said that we would do greater things then he did. So why aren't we doing them.

On June 1st 2008 Aaron Kirk Bennett was killed in a car accident, I knew him from church and just the Wednesday before his mother and I were talking about how he was going to ask me out. That Sunday when I found out he had passed away, I was so crushed...knowing that he was a man of God who would have been a great friend I and now he was gone. Then God laid on my heart, the call to faithfully believe that he would be brought back to life...and god wanted to use me.
On a Tuesday night during a prayer service, God spoke to me these words..."God does miracles."
He told me to speak the words in Kirks ear and to just believe. I had no doubt...just all faith.
I was going to go to his funeral but then I didn't hear anything about it.
On July 1st 2008 I went to his funeral, it was held off for a month because his sister who was also in the car wreck was in a coma. His mom had waited until she was able to go to the funeral.
I went with one purpose and one alone...to say these words "God does miracles." I had no doubt in my mind and no doubt right now that it would have worked.
But I chickened out scared of what people would think. I went and sat down hoping I would have the nerve to get up and say those special words at the end of the service. But god told me that I lost my chance. He told me when to do it and i didn't.
I lost a chance, I cant get back the opportunity. An opportunity that no one else could have been called to either. At the same time I still had and still have full faith that God would have done it.

Don't miss your opportunities...I did and I regretted it for a long time...a year. Then I gave it fully to god learned from it and realized that god is calling us all to have faith to even raise the dead in his name....we shall do greater things than he did...and I am so excited that god has called our generation to do so.
Everyone has these kind of opportunities but we are the future.

WILL WE STAND IN HIS PROMISES AND THE FAITH WE KNOW WE SHOULD HAVE.

Whats ahead...?

2009-12-27T17:07:00.001-08:00

I'm not sure of what my call for God is but i have a general idea...ministry. I know, that I know, that I know, that I am supposed to be in full time ministry.
Do you know, that you know, that you know, what your supposed to do....well I want to let you know that it doesnt matter what you do, as long as it is for God.
You dont have to be in ministry, you could be a mom, a doctor, any thing....if your doing it for God.
Around every corner is an opportunity to be a vessel for God, to show people who he is without ever saying a word...like picking up a babies bottle in the mall after they have dropped it and their parents didnt notice...bring food to people who dont have any and loving people.
You might not notice it or think about it this way but people see what you do. When you harshly joke with your friends in the store and the old lady walks by...you just confirmed to her that our generation is lost and going down the drain.
Or when we know the words that are coming out of our mouths aren't what we should be saying...even if that person was rude, we need to forgive.

And I know, what room do I have to say any things...I do them, I know and I am tired of it...I'm not a hypocrite I am human, I am flesh and blood and i have a sin nature that's being fought every day. I slip up, I ask for gods help and I keep going no matter what others might think...

BECAUSE WE ARE IN THE WAY...

The only thing holding god back is us, we are the wall in the way...not wanting to leave our comfort zones.
Well I would like to encourage you to take baby steps and try something a little different and keep on stepping. I know you can do it. Not matter where you've been, the path ahead can leads to greater things. It wont be easy, you will have to work, you will cry, you will fight,and you will WIN. By the power of Christ inside of you, you will WIN.

My grandmother said something to me that I don't ever want to forget...

"I would rather stay home then go to the store and get what I need, the roads are being worked on I would rather not have it then go through the trouble"

Applied-"I would rather stay where I am, if its going to be hard I'm not going, if I have to go through trouble I would rather MISS OUT. I would rather miss out then FIGHT."

I DON'T WANT TO MISS OUT ANY MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to get hurt and knocked down for God I want people to think of Paul when they see me....who do you want people to see in you...I want Christ to take me over no matter what.
I will fall and I will mess up horribly. I will learn from my mistakes and I will make it through. Even when people think I have ruined something god will see my heart and I will keep going. When I trip I will get back up...will you.

The road is long, hard and promising....knowing that the king of kings is protecting me and providing for me, I will make it, not by my strength or might but by his.

A New Call

2009-12-25T18:46:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone, I would like to say that this blog is for young women...who want to be completely set apart for God. There is a call for on a group of young women in this generation that is ignored and this is your chance to chase that call. I am not here to direct your path but I do want to hear what you think, and to stir your thoughts.

So many times this world shows us over and over again how love is and how we should be but what does God have to say.

The love you see in movies will not come your way (I would like to crush your dreams now) but a better one can. Movies are scripted and planned out and 9.99 times out of 10 the movies show how women use their bodies and there sex appeal to get love. That the kiss is so important and that even if Mr. right is a bit of a jerk he is still the one for you.

Why can't a first kiss be saved for the wedding day?

What happened to Gods standards, what happened to his promises? (not saying he doesn't want you to kiss its just a thought).

I don't know about you but god provides the very best for me, God wont hold back, he doesn't depend on what you can do.

There is a standard by-passed that I want to build back up in young woman of our generation. There is a love story for all of us, that is the love story with God.

So many books tell us how we are to depend on God and focus on him but then through in "God's going to send you that guy just be patient."

I don't want to be patient anymore it makes me long, it makes me go off track and think about who god might have for me (that's not bad...lol) But when will we get to the point where we think only of what God wants...then when we get there who knows...our future husband could have been chasing us and it makes it even better to know you were fought for...fight.

What if we forget about the guy god has and just think about god but forget it, who can do that, I haven't yet, but I want to.

I just want to focus on God and be happy totally and completely happy, will you join me...