A new year

So the summer is almost over and a new semester is about to start. I cant wait to see what God is going to do this year. When you give him your all he gives his all back. When you seek him you will find him, and when you compromise your provisions may be lacking. But the God of glory is near, his kingdom is us, and his power is leading.
I encourage everyone one who reads this to give God their all and to be able to surrender what it is you want most to God. He will fill and give back to you what you desire. This year is Gods but we have to give it him, just a suggestion...lol
Well have fun all and make the best of this year.

this summer has been crazy i jusy now got the pwer cord for my comp so i can use it. i have learned alot this summer and i have been working alot and learning ho wmuch i need god to show me that i love him and in to his love.

sorry i havent blogged...the Internet hasnt been working. This summer is going great...spending time with god really changes the day....more encouragement more fun. I have met so many new people his summer and it has been great....i need kool things to do, i have finished paintings and i have more to do...oooo and my bday is coming soon.....!!!!!!

Summer is Here

Well this summer i have so many goals and things i would love to do. Besides working for tuition money and saving what i can, giving has been really placed on my heart. Not just money but of myself. CMC is reading Primal by Mark Batterson as a summer assignment, and it is life changing to know what we can do. So many times we think that we can't make an impact but we can. I don't have a big income at all but i have one and you know what that means...i can give.
I would really like to really talk to people about god, to really pour my heart out to them. Not to just say hey, but to be a life changer. That this summer isn't a summer of fun but of change.
Recently i received a letter from one of the girls from my home church and it reminded me of what god has for me. I forgot how i met her and how it all started. She reminded me that two people went up and talked to her when she sat alone, i was one of them, that i was persistent and didn't stop. Now she is a youth leader in our church and is going to college for music and ministry. God use me to change her life, not by what i can do but by him....knowing we both love art and that would change lives. That she is now impacting girls lives and they will one day do it also how amazing. Getting that reminder of who god has called me to be has really opened my eyes to know that even when we forget he will always remind us.
God is so amazing and merciful, without his grace i wouldn't make it through. I love knowing that when i fall he is there helping me back up and that there is no way i could stay down with god on my side.
This summer is going to be life changing because god i the focus. I will talk to someone each week about God, i will give what i can, i will make people smile and i will love with all my heart.
I don't want to sit back any more i want to know that god is using someone like me to change the world!
Thanks for reading...and more is to come on what happens.

Starting over...

So I haven't blogged in a long time but i just wanted to say that God is awesome...that when we r searching for worldly love he will show it. When we want to hear our earthly father say...your beautiful...then God whispers "your beautiful"....the name you don't like i chose to show your beauty....that's my Jesus and my love...!!!!!!!!!

thought

OK so if God has given you a gift use it. If there is a sermon in your heart write it down. Be active!!!
If you see some one who needs help...help!!!

love you just a thought and stuff i want to work one...have fun

Not you any more

Wow this past week has been so crazy, and a new week is already here.
God changed my life more than i could have imagined and showed me how much more he has to do.
I don't want to ever be ungrateful... god has done so much,
i was scared and lonely and didn't want to be here on earth and now i have a purpose and fun all the time...

never forget what god has done because none of what you can do is by your strength.
God is the key don't forget it
he is the one who will lead your path not you.

Don't give up on your goals and don't lead...follow god

This past week at winter retreat was amazing and god showed me how real he was and i just want to say i am so excited...to know that god came and spoke to me out of all the people there he wanted to speak to me...yes he has a word for other people too but i felt so loved knowing that such a huge God loves me to let me know who i am...he will let you know too...wrestle for it.!!!!

Roomies

So tonight is our last night together for my roomies and me...one of the girls thought we should have a sleep over on the floor for our last night. (we are just switching rooms)
This made me laugh because we all live in the same house and we have shared the same room for the past 4 months.
But you know what its people like that who really appreciate things.
A person even though we live together has such a love and a bod with us doesn't even want to switch rooms...i love it.
I want people in my life who always want to be around, people who cannot forget me.
Lets strive toward the goal to have people hold tight to us, to show a love we didn't think could come from us.
Not just for our friends but for the people we dont know. The people we know need a savior and a friend.
There is so much more that we could do....so we need to step up and have fun with others.

We need to remember to make friends.

Stick figures

In our world of crazy colors i want to stand out like a black stick figure...that i would never be able to fit in.
A misfit in a world running from god...i am the one chasing him, do you and to join me...there are a few things you should know...:

That you will not fit in
That what you say and do could seem out there and people wont get it.
You wont walk or talk the same
your friends and you will be totally different.
And the one place where you will fit in is during worship....the one place where you know exactly who you are...

do you want to be a misfit...I DO!!!

Conformation of my Daddys love

So i know this is my second blog in about 3 hours but thats ok...i feel in my heart to remind you that God always pulls through.
That he is your daddy and that we need to be babies in his arms that we should no longer try and do things for our selves but all should be entrusted to him.
When god speaks into your life it will all be confirmed. He will not leave you guessing, he will not dump u off.
God is searching for you who are searching for him. The More you seek him the more you find him, the more you adore him while sitting at his feet, the more understanding of his beauty will be yours, the more you want what he has, there will be less of you in the way and more of him, the more you lean against him and listen to his heart beet the more you will trust him, the more you will know that you are and always will be safe.

Daddy, savior, teacher; god...we need him to be all of them....will you let him...?

God is amazing...

There are so many stages that god takes us through. For my self i went through a stage where he was just GOD and that was it. Then he was my savior, there one who could hold the universe in his hands, he came to our earth ....a speck...to save us. Then he became a friend that i could tell anything to.
But now he is my daddy....i didn't grow up with some loving father the gushes, i just wished for one. But now i have a Daddy and he is all mine...and i am his. He will be and always is holding me in his arms right against his chest, smiling knowing that i am adoring him and him alone.
NO ONE, can say my God isn't real...he is the most tangible thing in my life...he's my poppy. He holds me and loves me and takes me over from the bottom up!!!!

You ask how i am so sure...well this past break God drew me in more than i could have expected and he opened my heart to him this weekend at our State master conference...a man from Texas who has never met me in his life told me everything i grew up with, everything i hope to do & be and everything i am in the works of doing.

You cant tell me my god, my savior, my Daddy isn't real...

i refuse to be discouraged, and put down because my god in the only thing that matters....is he all that matters to you.
Because when he totally takes over you your desires dont exsist and they become his desires.

Don't stand back any more fight and wrestle with god, don't be like every one else...be his

MISFIT!!!!!!!!

Who are we...?

There has always been a gap in my mind of how huge God is and how small we are. What kind of sacrifice Jesus really made.
Well god gave me a poem out of no where a couple days ago and this is it.

A Scale Tipper

I believe:

That I am nothing,
And I will leave as nothing.
But while I’m nothing,
I will be known for something.

As grain of sand that I am in this world,
I will tip scales.
I am the flap of a butterfly’s wing,
That will cause a tsunami.

I will be the aggravating speck,
That lands in your eye.
I will be the salt,
That burns your wounds.

As nothing,
But I will be noticed for SOMETHING!!!
I will overturn average,
And change the future.

I will be that small whisper,
That changes nations.
I will be one flake of snow
In a blizzard remembered forever decades.

Nothing can stop me,
I am free.
When I am here and when I am gone,
People will know me.

They will not recognize my coming,
Or my going.
But they will know ME!!!
Because I am nothing.

I wrote this and then Sunday at church was when I got it, we are NOTHING!!!

That god doesn't hold the world in his hands, but the whole universe.
That we aren't even a speck in the place god created...earth is a speck....so what does that make me...?

And if we aren't specks....just think, Christ came here and was less than a speck for us. One second holding us and everything else in his hands and then here...wow.

I feel so blessed and loved knowing that god would come to our earth and be with us...that he loves us with everything inside of him and we aren't even a speck...CRAZY!!!

I get it I really do and now I am ready to have a faith in him greater than all things because we are so Small,l God love could never be questioned.